Current Mood:
Sad
So, yesterday I had my yearly check up with my OB/GYN. Not the greatest of blogging conversations I know…but I must push past my own embarassment and put it out there. I think if I put it out there I may not feel so alone, and some of you may have some great advice for me to help me get out of my downward spiral - or at least I hope you have some good advice.
You know how every time you go to the doctor they weigh you? Well, apparently I gained 16 pounds over the past year. It’s not something I’m proud of, and I knew I had gained a few pounds in recent months, but my doctor has made it clear to me that this is now a health issue for me and I need to do something. The thing that makes me frustrated is that about 3 years ago I was within 5 punds of getting rid of the baby weight I gained with my now almost 5 and a half year old. Family things began to dominate our lives, I lost sight of my goal, gained the weight back, and I just haven’t been able to get back there since. Of course then I was able to get to the gym 3-4 days a week with nothing else busying up my schedule, and I had time to work out without having to be on a total time schedule. Now a days I am on a time schedule around Clare’s school schedule, as well as other things that we do, and it’s just not working out. I know we all have our excuses…but now is the time for me to take care of this before it ends up becoming more than I can handle.
Most of my problem is that living in MI I only get about 6 - 7 months of sunshine by the time you add in all the grey cloudy days of Spring, Winter, Fall, and sometimes even Summer. The lack of sunshine really gets to me, then I become depressed, and then I over eat. I also have a tendancy to over eat when I am stressed, and right now with our fabulous snowy weather I stress about driving to and from Clare’s school, as well as some other things. Life in general also kinda has me down, which doesn’t really want to motivate me to get to the gym around my schedule. I know I need to just deal with it; it’s where I live, and if my depression continues to get worse I plan on seeing my doctor. Anyway, onto the help that I’m in need of.
Here’s where you come in - Bloggy World - I am in the market for some good exercise DVD’s, but have no clue where to begin when I look at them. I want something that doesn’t have 3 perky blonde (or any other colored hair) women in it “cheerleading” me on during their insane workout. I dispise Denise Austin’s videos….”Come on, Beautiful, Looking Good, 2 More, Come on, lift if higher” - UGH it makes me want to throw-up or throw things at the television! What I’m looking for is a straight forward exercise routine that I can do without feeling like a complete idiot in my own living room. I have Netflix, so I can easily get things from there - I just don’t know who to look at or where to start.
We are unfortunately canceling my gym membership - it’s just a waste of money, and we never seem to make it there no matter how much we say we’re going to do it. We’ve said probably for the past year or less that we’re going to get back to going steadily, but it just never happens. Instead with that money we want to purchase something that we can use at home. If it’s convienent, I’m certain I’d use it; especially if it were by a TV that I can either watch my DVRed television, or watch a movie on without commercials or interruption. Until we get our exercise equipment though I’d like to start with a video or two I can do in the evening after Clare’s in bed. If anyone also has any good advice on a cheapesk (with a high weight limit of over 300lbs) eliptical machine - I’d appreciate it. Brad has been doing some research, but if anyone has anything we minght not have thought about we’d love to hear your comments.
Martini Mood
So, today’s the day in which Halmark and the floral companies want your money! From that statement I’m sure that you can tell that we aren’t much for celebrating Valentine’s Day here in the Eastowners household. Both Brad & I are fairly strongly oppinionated in saying that we don’t need a designated day on the calendary provided to us by the card companies and floral companies to show our love for one another. I do have to say though, that in the past it was nice to recieve suprise gifts and dates, but as we’ve grown together more I tend to get those on dates that are truely a suprise. Brad and I have officially been together as a couple for 10 years now, and the suprises continue to get better as the years go by. Last year he suprised me for both Christmas and my birthday with almost a week away up in Traverse City without Clare for some wine tasting, some shopping, and a massage. He also gives me little suprises, like coming home and starting dinner without asking me. Or waking up early to do all the dishes before he heads to work. It’s the little things in life, and we don’t need a cold snowy day in February to remind us of the love we have. We’ve had our rough spots, as most married couples do, but in the end we still love one another and show it in many ways. I hope that those of you that have someone special in your life do the same, not just on the day the card makers say you should. 
Violent
Alarmed
Esctatic
